The title is how I feel. The reality is that Dan is my cousin. Our Dads were/are brothers. Both men now in Heaven. I am five years younger than Dan. It doesn't matter now, but back in the day I was the little cousin. He is so so funny. He has THE best sense of humor and one liners ever. I always felt a special place in my heart for him. What changed our relationship was love. We always loved each other but it was by jokes and so much joyful laughter. Then I was almost killed in a car accident when I was 20. It shook him. He wrote me a wonderful poem/card about how everyone and how he felt. Through my life, he was always there, somewhere... I depended on this. When my Dad died he was a big part of my strength. I suffered greatly from depression that first year. He was "around". Then Dan's Dad got sick with Cancer. I loved my Uncle Tom and needed to be there. By th...